Saturday, January 26, 2013

A farewell to Billo


May 14, 2009
IT-BHU

                Standing in front of the foundry shop with a bunch of smirched papers in his hands he checked another tick on the No-dues form after getting it signed from one more shop. It was a long, crispy yellowish form made of a very thin sheet that easily caught wrinkles. He held it firmly with both his hands and checked it again for left out spaces. There was one blank space left. It was against the I.C Engine lab. He has tried to defer it so far, thinking of avoiding it forever, but now had no other department left un-checked to further delay the confrontation.

At the I.C Engine lab, after Vijay dropped him there with a wooden box, two bags full of castings of aluminum, batteries, wires, a tool box and many other items, in the left hand and Billo in the right one, he stood there for a while. He didn’t remember for how long. It was a silent afternoon at the laboratory; a shaft of sun ray lit the far end of the corridor where three rows of benches were arranged with a black-board in front of them for the small lectures that were read there to the students. On the left side immediately as one enters was the office of Prof. H N Gupta opposite to which was placed a rotary piston engine with webs all over it dictating that it has been untouched for many years. The space that followed had rows of cut-sections and working models of different aggregates of an automobile on both the sides. The lab attendant, who was still un-familiar to him even after the 4 years that he had spent in the mechanical department, looked at him with a questioning brow through his glasses.
“I am here to get the No-dues signed”, he declared.
“Very well, do you have any dues from in here? What’s your roll number?”
“05000625, I have a model car with me to submit”
“Well than hand it over to me”
“No, I will keep it myself. Show me the place”, he moved towards the store room.
“There you go, find a place and keep it. Lock the room when you are done”, the attendant said as he opened the door and went back to his seat.
    After arranging all the items carefully in the wooden-box, he went back to sit on the bench with Billo placed on the table. It’s front left tire resting on a metal piece, slightly above the rest of its chassis. That’s how he has always liked it standing.

“So this is it. The time has finally come when I have to leave you here little friend. It has been the most wonderful time of my under-graduation working with you. I know that I have rammed you, thrashed you, overhauled you and even threw you off the table many times but that was only because I believed in you. I trusted that you won’t fail against any obstacle and of-course you have failed me many times but in the end we’ve won a few races. I hope you know that it was not winning the races that mattered for me, it was participating in the event and improving and understanding you that was of prime importance to me. And we have had a good time all along”, Billo kept staring as he went on talking.
“Remember on those cold nights of January, when you would refuse to start at all even after incessant cranking. We had to play your favorite song ‘Bhool Bhulaiya’ and then you would start at a single try. And once when we didn’t have that song with us out in the street, we had to get you warmed up on the left-out heat in the stove of Limbdi Corner.”

“Aren’t you done yet? It’s time to close the lab. Please make it fast”, exclaimed the lab attendant. He waived at him and asked for one more minute and continued his farewell biding.

“Anyways leave all that. Here are some points I want you to remember. I have prepared the correct mixture of fuel and stored it in a bottle in your box. It’s enough to last one more season. The rear right shocker is broken which I had plastered with M-seal so don’t go off-road too often, it may come off completely. And you know why your front shockers have gone stiff since last month? After we rammed you into that pole at full speed a month ago, both the front suspensions leaked out. I thought of filling them again with Castor oil but then I felt that ketchup would be more fun, so when Vijay would ram you next time it would look like you were bleeding ;). I hope you won’t mind it at all, the stiffer suspensions have given you more height in the front and I suppose you have liked it. The carburetor’s settings are currently perfect as per Varanasi’s humid weather and the fuel ratio with NO nitro. Please don’t let anyone disturb them”, he felt a stab of regretful pain when he failed to find a look of assurance in Billo and realized that it was but a mere machine. All these precautions were futile. Students of next batch have shown interest in working on this project but they intended to fabricate a bike using its engine and differentials. He nonetheless acted as if it was all untrue. That car was all what he has thought about and worked upon for the last two years, understanding all the sensitive settings that changed its behavior vastly. And now the knowledge that it would be dismantled forever hurt him deep inside the heart.

He threw the car into box from his natural height. It was not an act of disrespect but of honor because he knew that he had worked on the suspensions and chassis to handle that much load. The car fell on the front two shockers and rested the rear tires subsequently; the chassis didn’t touch the ground. No harsh sound was produced as the suspension took on the impulse bravely. A leaf of paper followed the car on the ground. It was checklist and precautions that he had prepared for the car. As he handed over the keys to the lab attendant, he stamped the form and had it signed from the Lab incharge.
“What do you think will happen to this car”, he asked the attendant.
“Some students have been inquiring about its availability. I think it will be issued to them within a week”, the statement had confirmed what he had been afraid of since long. His hold of the un-finished spur gear that he has kept as a memorandum in his pocked went tight. It was inevitable; the model had to be destroyed so that the next batch could work on it from scratch again. This didn’t bother him, it was his possessiveness that kept pinching him in his chest. He knew that this feeling was supposed to be unlooked at, so he took a deep breath and walked out of the lab at an increased pace without stopping or looking back at the first love of his life. 

Friday, March 9, 2012

Moments

The smell, which I have identified with a sense of safety, support, care, relief and of love since I was born, preceded her as she entered the car. The smell, that has been around me for almost 80% of my lifetime, that of all things is there when I need it the most, that has favored me when everyone else opposed and that had supported me in my most trying times filled the car with a warm fragrance of Fair & Lovely.

“You’ve got to wear seat belt mom”, I said as I started the car.

“It isn’t Delhi. Besides, it chokes me up. Don’t you get tired? You have driven all the way from Agra and now you want to go shopping”, she said and adjusted the seat backward.

“I am not tired”, I replied laconically and immediately switched the folder to Hindi songs before she could raise any objection.

I applied brakes instinctively when a bicycle crossed the street ignoring the traffic. “See? That’s why I ask you to wear seat belt and keep your feet down. I can’t slow down any more gradually then this”, I cajoled her into wearing the belt using this old trick and continued. “What’s on the menu today?”

“Aalu baingan (Eggplant)”, she replied in her natural riant disposition.

“Isn’t that…”, I tried to complete my sentence.

“Yeah yeah I know Baingan = be (without) + gun (characteristic)”, she recited the fact as I have told her at every chance I got to flaunt my little knowledge about vegetables gained from my last relationship.

A natural tear appeared as I yawned while singing along with the front speakers of my car. “Aawaz main na dunga… chaahunga main tujhe…saanjh sawere… ”, I continued singing but stopped when I noticed Mom wiping tears off her eyes, looking away.

“What happened?” I asked, worried.

“Change the song. Why do you play this song?” she replied and tossed over a hiccough.

“The tune is catchy. But why? What happened?”

“Same as what happened to you”, she replied…smiling off her embarrassment away caused by being caught crying.

Still unable to comprehend the reason, I thought, “May be she was missing Dad who has recently been transferred to another location and is able to come home on weekends only. So I tried to give her a positive contrast as compared to my situation in order to console her and said …At least you can call Dad whenever you want, I can’t even call her

“No, It’s not your dad”, she said solemnly and then continued “Why were you crying while that song played? You are still not Ok, are you?” Her eyes grew wet again as she completed the question, as if she already knew the answer and cried in its anticipation.

“What? No, I wasn’t crying. I am ok now.” I knew that she heard me but those words were discarded by her instantly as untrue. I felt a deep sinking feeling in my stomach out of horror at the acknowledgment that my efforts to show her that I am fine have been futile. Her nod indicated clearly that she didn’t want to discuss it any further and also that she desperately needed a reason that could assure her that I have moved on. A smothering silence prevailed for a noticeably long period. I wanted to break the silence but I suddenly had nothing to say.

“Is that what made you cry mom”, I thought to myself… “A mere hint that I might still be hurting myself because of how my love story ended. I have already damned myself enough for sharing that pain with you. What a fool I have been to think that you have dropped that incident out of your mind and that you too have moved on along with my pretense.”

“You know, if that makes you feel any better, I used to miss Sonu and not her whenever I heard that song”, I finally broke the silence as we crossed Sonu’s home and she burst into laughter again.


I may not know how to defy her, but I do know how to make her laugh.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Didi Speaks....

“Bhai I have written first ever blog of my life……….read it, edit it n upload it”.Didi instructed……….s

Didi speaks…………..

“Beta will you join us for our relatives marriage day after tomorrow”, – Dad said and I straight away said no to this invitation as usual, B/w(I dun know y people get married, it create such a mess to the traffic n y cant it b a simple affair, I thought).

“Beta I understand your office timings but we cant ignore this wedding as your grandfather wants all of us to attend this wedding. We will pick you from your office”, Uninterested I said “okk vl c” in a lower tone, as I tried to sleep as mom continued watching her fav saas- bahu serials(I hate ektaa kapoor for this).

“Mom, m leaving for the day”, I said as I rushed towards the gate looking at my wristwatch since I was consistently late for the third week. “Ok beta bt do remember will pick you in the evening. Try to get free on time”
“ Ok mom” I shouted -as I rushed through the gate.

And that’s when the longest, tiring, hectic, adventurous night of 27 Feb. started(I would try to justify these adjectives in the coming events )

27 Feb. 4:30 pm---------

“Didi, m leaving for Mamaji’s place so pls pick me from there as there is no transport support today”, Fatso said in his usual confused tone which I ignored and cut his calls even before he could complete his sentence.

“Mom wat time will you leave I’ll b free by six in evening.”—I enquired

“ Beta vl call you before leaving. Driver vl b here netime so u coordinate with pummy(fatso!!!) and meet us at ashram at 7, okk”.

“Meet me at barakhamba metro station at 6 30”,…. I instructed fatso rather then informing and again cut his call even before he could say okk.




27 Feb. 6:45 pm---------Barakhamba Metro station

“Lets have something, aloo chat is gr8 here”, I said while sitting outside barakhamba station .

“ I think didi v shud leave, mom n dad vl reach there netime”….. replied fatso…. again clueless bout whatever he is saying.

“Nopes they havnt started yet, cabbie is late as per Indian timing I have just confirmed with them.”

7:05 pm--------

Lets leave it will take time, thanks to delhi traffic………”, I instructed again.
N as usual atleast 15 autowallah refused to go(and all of them had 15 diff reasons to refuse, Mumbai is far better as far as commuting is concerned I thought, heard of it from some of my frens). Finally we managed to convince one autowallah wen mom n dad called up from cabbies mobile(yes they still dun carry mobile!!!!! God knows the reason)“ beta v still havnt started yet, cabbbie is late, vl take another hour to reach, so u manage accordingly”
” Okk mom,”, I said in a tiring tone………

“Bhaiyya ji jus stop at HT house, will hav something in the canteen n take this 20 rs .”

7:30 pm-----HT House

“Show him your I card, he’ll nt allow you to enter”, I asked fatso…..

“ n wat bout u?”,he replied back in amusement

“ he knows me… I said proudly……….tryin to show my media power to the clueless kid………………”

We tried n passed time by roaming around in HT premises, fatso looked amused as he kept looking around n following me sincerely.


8:30pm Maharani bagh Bus stop

“Beta v vl b dere in another 15 min……….”,mom informed. This city nvr look deserted thanks to ppl around n the cars who r round d clock always on road n moving in Traffic jams unlike faridabad (where I stay) which sleeps at 7 in the evening.

Finally came the late cabbie with mom n dad n we moved just to get struck in a long excrutiating traffic jam. Ohh its hell……….it feels as if ppl are not left with nething to do jus to create hour long traffic jams(ohh hell………….y do ppl get married I cursed again………..as I started loosing my nerves now………..)
Finally the jam cleared jus to land up in another 2 hr long jam from wazirbad to the venue another round of traffic hell,………….. I HATE WEDDINGS………..
We shud go back to I suggested (now irritatingly) as there is no point going now as its already 12 while v searched foo the venue, for the fifth time…….. as ppl in del have the habit of misguiding ppl who r on search of their venues.(typically delhite)…..

12.15 pm, Raghunath Vatika, Yamuna Vihar

“Namaste grandpa, granny….”
“Bless u my child………….
Meet your uncle aunty, chacha , chachi……….”(N list doesn’t end)…………….

We finished our late night dinner……….n rushed back to the cab…………..again to struck in another tiring, painful, delhi commercial vehicle jam.
(wen vl dis jam filled night end….i thought feeling tired)

Suddenly a by standers shouts…………n disturbs me in my sleep………..
Saab ji take dis route(pointing towards a deserted way)it will help u reach soon to the highwayit’s a shortcut”.

“Drvr ji take that turn”,dad said as hez again guided (or misguided, which I still have to understand), by helpful n more den friendly delhiite

N we enter the most scariest, isolated, deserted, frightful forest kind of place in North Delhi, which forces me to open my eyes even more wider…the place was givin a spooky kind of feeling, a place where u feel a ghost will appear from either side of the window or vl get looted (when you are in a place like Delhi, u tend to have dese kind of thoughts, U cant help it!!!!)
Mom started her usual chanting………. So did I with gayantri mantra……… when we came across a wooden bridge which wen looked at felt like it wud fell down netime, n the thought of crossing that gave me a hollow kinnda feeling in stomach, man its scarily adventurous, every moment was getting tougher to pass wen we finally saw the ring road.

Drvr accelerated the cab immediately to that way n we took a sigh of relief……………

Jus to end in (ohh u guessed it right) another jam…………..y the hell is this happening (I should have never agreed to attend this wedding) was the expression on everyone’s face; at least dat’s what I could sense.

Words of Wisdom: Wen u struck in some situation without knowing how to get out of it and wen u hav no options left, jus accept that situation, it will b easier for you to sail out of it. I have learnt it from my experiences, n it helped me that day.

28 Feb, 2 am, Sarita Vihar

This series of Traffic Jam finally ended at sarita vihar…. bt it was nt that easier…. of course…night had already become tiresome, painful, hectic, n I was feeling sleepy n worst I had to attend the office as well…
I really need a sleep yar……………..
Now this jam was quiet unusual……………..in other jams, traffic was moving at snails speed…. here the traffic completely stopped…n ppl parked there cars in the middle of the roads………. started their FM……….fever 104………I could hear the music bt for the first time it sounds irritating………I hated listenin to music… that too at this point of time………..

I could hear whisper of ppl making assumptions of this situation………..
Few said……….truck had overturned some 5 km away n few said an accident have taken place…………. It will take at least two hours to clear
This is unreal…its 2 am in the morning so I tried to catch up as much sleep as possible bt it was all futile….

Traffic started moving after 1 hr…. which again woke me up from my half awake dreams…n a heavy head…
Our cab passed through a burning quails (juss like you see in action movies), which had overturned and jumped on the left side of the footpath over the kerps.

I dint tried to peek into the quails, even out of curiosity…as it wud nt b a dat good sight to look at…so I turned away my eyes from the burning flames…

N thank god for that night we dint came across any more jams……….
Our cabs cruised through the deserted n few trucks on mathura road………..
N finally v wer in front of our homes……………..wen watchman passed through with his usual slogans………..JAAGTE RAHO!!!!!

Word of Caution
• Drive safe.
• Try n hav a peaceful wedding (it helps reduce the Traffic Jams!!!!)
• Nvr attend a wedding, if u have to attend the office next day.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Damn.... I hate to go to hospitals...

Who is this extremely beautiful girl sitting next to dad, smiling at me……why is everyone smiling at me……and what time of the day is it when the sun rays are coming from north side?.......flowers are talking……the blue colored gummy bear shaped soft toy that didi got from one of her foreign return friend is jumping on the bed…….and apart from all these weird activities going around, I’m more curious about that beautiful girl with a glowing aura around her……who is she?....... I should ask her myself…….

BANG! BANG! BANG!........ “Verma, open up…..its me”, Arora shouted as he simultaneously banged the doors. After our parents decided that we two would be roomies, and we eventually turned out to be good friends……there has been a tacit understanding amongst us that we would call each other by the last names as our first names are homophonic if not same (Sourabh & Saurabh )………and since it’s kind of weird to call some other person by your own name.

“Coming…..”, I said as I came out of my lucid dream.

“Who coordinates all these events…….you disturbed me exactly when I was about to find out who that pretty girl in my dream was…”, I said, letting him into my room.

“I can’t drive the bike……you will have to take me to hospital……its paining like hell in the right side this time”, Arora said and gave me the keys to Vijay’s bike.

“Oh common…….look it’s Sleep’O clock in the watch………why don’t you take Vijay with you”, I said.

“It’s your turn this time……now get your ass out fast or I’ll vomit it out all in your room”, Arora said, managing to sound firm even as he was in pain.

“Ok, ok…… let me put on my jeans……it’s a cold night”, I said.

The loud noise from useless silencer of vijay’s bike disturbed the silent night of hostel as we cruised through the gate waking up Mishra ji (watchman) from his deep(drunk) duty sleep……cold, soft breeze of BHU kept me sleeping as I drove until that sharp pointed speed-breaker broke my sleep……

“Hey Arora……are you afraid of my driving”, I asked…. .,just to ensure him that I was awake.

“yes……sometimes”

“I too……… ;)”, I said as we reached the emergency wing…… “ hey what’s these black drops doing here………look there they go……their frequency is increasing……Oh my god!!!”, I whispered the last three words to myself as I stood shocked to see what Arora voiced out of his surprise a second later……

“It’s blood!... it’s blood!!!..... Ok, don’t follow it further, …… you surely won’t be pleased to see whatever it leads to”, he said and we both entered the doctor’s room………constraining our sight to forward direction so we may not encounter anything bad.

“Where’s the doctor? ”, I asked to one of the peon……busy in talking with his colleague for the last 5 minutes.

“He is coming in a minute, gone for a round”, he replied…… “There he comes…… show your health card”, he said trying to sound alert as two person dressed up like a doc entered.

“They are docs? Looks like students”, I whispered to Arora when the one with a long nose interrupted….

“Hi……”

…and then Arora continued to explain the problem ……

“Alright, its just a normal pain, nothing to worry about……just take these two medicines and you will be fine”, the guy with long nose said when the other one interrupted……

“It may be a case of gastritis….its paining in right side…. You should go for some tests……”

And then the two got busy in some discussion after which they finally decided to call a senior doctor and take his advice.

“Here you go….take these medicines for killing the pain, and do come again for a recheck”, the two of them finally said in unison.

After we went back ……passing by those blood drops… the sharp edged speed breaker and Mishra ji…… Arora vomited out all the medicines that he took,… so we headed back to hospital again…. , there was a slight change in the emergency wing’s scene this time, a sort of tensed atmosphere prevailed as the old lady, who was there ….lying on one of those iron beds was now surrounded by her worried and on the verge of crying family members.

“Where’s the doctor?”, I asked to the peon.

“He’ll be coming shortly……just wait there”, he said and pointed towards the vacant waiting seats.

While Arora slept on the waiting chairs, …. I silently observed what was going on with the old lady and her family…

 “Why are you still here…. We already told you there’s nothing else we can do now, just take her to the private hospital across the road”, a lady doctor said in firm and loud voice.

“But……they told us to wait….how can you just ask us to leave……please, there should be something you could do….”, the old lady’s son pleaded as he broke into tears.

“Why don’t you understand……she don’t have much time left……there’s no time for arguments…. Just take her to that private hospital, they have better equipments, we are not going to take her responsibility of her any more”, the doctor replied and rushed into the emergency room.

The old lady’s family took her to the nearby private hospital on an auto-rickshaw which they somehow managed to arrange at 3am in the morning.

“So …. You are from ITI…… huh?”,  the peon asked as he took a break from his very important discussion about some “Shiela Ji” (a new doctor) with his colleague lab assistant.

“I…T”, I replied……trying to be as brief as possible. As the two(peon and lab assistant) got a new topic to discuss…. IT, they continued further.

Just when I was about to snatch out my hairs as I had to listen to their stupid and irritating discussion coz my hands were in the pockets out of cold and I could not use them to block my ears…… the doctor entered……

“Arora……wake up, doc is here”, I said.

The doc gave him an injection for relieving the pain for the time being, and then we returned to hostel ……waking Mishra Ji once again.

“……Where does that girl go?....... and what’s this white stage-smoke doing all over in my house…… there she is…… in a very raw dress…… her wet hairs make her look even more beautiful…… who are you?........ and why are you smiling?......”

BANG! BANG! BANG!..... “ Verma, open up…..it’s 7:30 already……Zaheer Sir’s class…… you don’t wanna miss it”, Vijay shouted ……and I lost her again…….

 

 

 

 

 

 

Friday, November 7, 2008

Fatso...... I hate you.

“leave me alone, I don’t wanna go to school, I want momy, I want to go home…..aaaaaaaaaa”, a screechingly loud voice disturbed the whole primary wing.
“ahh…… another new comer…… all are same….. even their crying dialogues won’t change, except that this one sounds exceptionally violent”, I whispered to Renuka, sitting next to me, as I took a break to sharp my pencil.
“shhhhh……keep writing, teacher had already stared you twice while you were talking”, she replied.
Ton! Ton! Ton!........ (period bell).
“Sourabh, come with me”, Miss Khemlata called me after a minute’s talk with Hari Bhaiya(peon) who came as the bell rang.
I followed her to the administrative office at the end of lobby…… exactly from where that stupid boy was shouting.
“your mother’s here, she wants to see you”, Miss Khemlata said as we entered the office.
“Take me back home….. I don’t want to study”, that painfully loud voice intensified as she opened the door.
That stupid boy was my younger brother….. it was his 2nd week in school…. And I knew why he was crying…… didn’t do his homework as I cajoled him in to playing with me all evening.
“Sourabh, please talk it out with your brother, he listens to you”, its kinda felt weird when mom have to call me by that name in front of school-staff/strangers. I am better known as Nikky at home.
“ hey fatso! Stop crying now…..”, I suck at dealing with crying people…… so didn’t had much to say.
“you know I haven’t done hindi homework, Khemlata madam will….”, sulking fatso replied in a lower tone.
“Don’t worry…… just go to your class”, I said…. feeling sorry for him as it was my fault.
“She is not going to kill you….. don’t be afraid and for god’s sake….. don’t cry, come I’ll take you to your classroom”, I said trying to calm him down.
“no, I won’t go there”, …. came the reply as he faced away from me.
“ how about I give you one rupee so you can buy an ice cream?”…. I said as I took out a 50 paisa coin from my pocket. Poor fatso,…. Still counts the money by number of coins and not their value, its easy to make a fool of him this way.
“Alright, take 2… and come with me now…”, I said regretfully as I gave him my pocket money for the day…….yes you calculated it right… one rupee.
“Mom, he’s ok now,….. give me his schoolbag….. I will take him to his classroom”
“Ohk, Aakash(fatso)….come here…… take this and be a good boy like your brother…. Ok?”, mom said as she gave him a chocolate.
Okhay, so he gets my pocket money and a chocolate and I get just a sweet tag (good boy)……. God I hate him.
“Bye mom”, I said as we proceeded towards the classroom.
“leave my hand now…… that’s your class….. go and eat your stupid chocolate….huh!”.
“I don’t want to go there, ….she’s cruel…..she will kill me”, fatso replied as he saw Miss Khemlata and broke into tears once again.
“Just go to your classroom……I am not momy who would pamper you…… this is too much, ..i don’t want to listen anything now….. my teacher will come any minute now”, I replied in a firm voice.
I left him in front of Nursery class and started walking towards my classroom when I heard those words for the first time in my life that makes you realize that you are the elder one……………..
“Bhaiya…..bhaiya ……… don’t leave me alone…….. “, fatso cried out loud,….. loud enough so that everyone in a radius of 10 meters could hear him clearly,...... making me feel more ashamed.
Although I loved to see him crying,…… even would do things to make him cry…… but it felt different at that moment. When someone cries taking your name… you just can’t ignore them…… I had to do something.
“Alright come with me”
“where…….home? “, he replied as he wiped his face.
“No stupid…… just follow me….. ”, I took him to my classroom full of students busy in different annoying activities….. no one noticed fatso.
“Isn’t that your brother?..... what is he doing here?”, Renuka said as I sat by her side.
……………………CLASS STAND!!....... GOOD MORNING MA’AM!!!......(background).
“oh my god, Miss Sudha is here …… Renuka just help me…. I will explain it to you later…… fatso hide urself under the bench…. fast”, I said as a sharp wave of fear went through me.
“Take out your Mental Maths book, today we are going to do chapter number……”, Sudha ma’am continued in her typical high pitch voice.
“Fatso!..... stop fiddling with chocolate wrapper… you are making lots of noise.. “, I said as slowly as I could & snatched the wrapper.
“Who is talking? Sourabh …. Stand up….. whats in your hand? “, Miss Sudha shouted …. Her voice getting tougher.
“It’s …. It’s a pencil ma’am”
“I’m talking about your left hand”
I surrendered the wrapper coz otherwise she would have to come and check me, only to find fatso.
“You were eating chocolate in the class……. Stand up on the bench….. now!!”
The classes continued normally for rest of the time accept the lunch period when most of the students and specially that stupid girl, Parul, came to know about fatso….. she could do any damn thing to get me into trouble after I caught her red handed, stealing pencils a few days back.
I was more worried as the next class was of Miss Khemlata, whom almost all the students thought of as the originator of all kind of brutalities in this world…………… she always had new, innovative and excruciating ways of punishing students found guilty of any kind, maybe I too qualified her criteria for defining guilty as well after keeping fatso with me all day.
“Keep your homework notebooks on your desks, those who haven’t done their homeworks can go and stand facing that wall, will deal with you after the class….”, Miss Khemlata interrupted as we wished her Good afternoon.
Luckily, Parul did not complaint against me that day and class went on smoothly……….
“How could you say ‘you don’t know’……”
“Ma’am your son did not come to class….. no body saw him here…. Even the class teacher didn’t see him”
“ ….. Miss Khemlata was here when I left him with his brother……….” a discussion between Vice principal and a lady who sounded like mom got clearer as they approached towards my class.
“Mom?......what are you doing here…..?”, I said, not much surprised to see her as I knew Nursery classes got off just after the lunch period.
“Sourabh, where’s your brother?… tell me fast…. I left him with you……. Where is he? ”, she asked……. pretending to be ok, which she definitely wasn’t…… atleast that was what I could figure out of her changed accent.
“ fatso is with me momy, he refused to go to his classroom… so I bought him here”
“What?....... Do you realize how worried I was……… Don’t ever do this again”, she said with a hint of relaxation in her tone this time.
“ I was just ……. And then he called me bhaiya……… I couldn’t just leave him there all crying…….sorry momy……” I said before breaking into tears for reasons still unknown to me.
“How did I not see him …… he was there with you in class??.....”, Miss Khemlata said and we all broke into a big laugh!!!!!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

One fine morning.....

Wake up! Wake up! …you have to go to receive your friend from new delhi station, its already 6:00 am”, mom shouts .
What does she mean ‘already’?, I always start my day at 11’o clock with a fall on the floor from bed”..yeah,….my mom doesn’t have a choice but to do that every morning since last 10 days when my summer holidays started.
who friend,….?”
tring tring!!! “hello
hi Sourabh, my train will reach the station at 8, you on your way or not?”…..Kartik.
oh, I will be there…..dun worry
(Delhi locals are much better than the Mumbai one’s,….the only thing that holds them back is……the frequency)
I somehow managed to catch the 7am local, and the train takes a half an hour rest at H.Nizammudin Station……..
The train is already filled with commuters and I always wonder how is there always space for more people to come in….as if there is infinite space in the boogie…..someone could actually do a research on this topic,……neways…….
A family enters through the gate opposite to the one I am standing at………..they seem to be on a holiday journey…..three elder members, one kid & lots of luggage.
…and then she enters the boogie. Well let’s call her she for the time being. We shared a sigh for a second & then I reverted back to 98.3FM…..it’s hot ;). After everyone settled at their achieved places, she came and stood in front of me…gave me a hi look …..I replied with a smile. The virtual conversation went on until her younger cousin interrupted,
Bharti Di, why are you standing alone, join us
It’s ok, I just need some fresh air”, she replied.
Now that’s how I know her name is Bharti, but what gave me an idea about she being from indore is still unknown to me. May be my subconscious mind was doing its work who doesn’t tell me much about its activities…….just gives me the inferences.
Alright dude, that’s it. This is your chance…….show your charm….start off the conversation….there’s nothing in saying a hi ….or may be there is ……what if things are not like what you think?......but she passed a smile….and seems interested….’, the optimist and the pessimist me argue with each other. Well there’s nothing wrong in this…its just that they are equally assertive that creates the problem. Just when the optimist me was about to win the argument, a heavy voice interrupted the fight…..
Can you please shift a bit more
Ofcourse”, I replied, relieved as the opti & pessi me disappeared…..no more mental stress….after all it was me vs me…
She passed a smile to that heavy voice guy as well…….does she smile to anybody?.....that guy was a man…..of the age of her father….. wait a minute…..may be he is……..and yes I was right.
Now that her father was standing by my side,….leaning half his weight on my shoulder…..I was grounded.
tring tring!!!.......”hello?”
hi bhaiya..where are you…..mom’s asking”, ………& this was when a brilliant idea struck my mind.
hey hi…..how are you….long time no see?”
“what?....you were with me an hour ago..”
“ohk…take down my personal number….its 9838738452……hello?..shud I repeat?....its 98387….”,….. I deliberately voiced out my number loudly…hoping she would notice.
have you gone crazy…m already calling you on this number and what the hell is going on?”
“Hey, there’s a network problem…..i can’t hear you clearly…. Call me on that number…..bye
The virtual conversation resumed after a while when her father went back to resolve the child fight that was disturbing me from last 10 minutes.
There was something different with this girl….every time we had an eye contact…..time slowed down…heart beats intensified……plus the song on Radio mirchi…
tum mile…..dil khile….aur jeene ko kya chahiye…....”
..being perfect for the situation added to the titillating feeling. And suddenly her hand slipped over mine as she tried to grab the bar that stood between us when the train moved with a jerk. A current ran through my body from bottom to top…..
itni haseen…koi nahi……husn dono jaha ka ek tujh mein simat ke aaya…
Tum mile….dil khile…..”

I knew it for sure that she felt the same way as I did……it was the next inference of my subconscious mind, I suppose.
A lot of commuters left as the train stopped on next two stops……train stopped in the middle of nowhere just before New Delhi Railway station……..thanx to lalu prashad for such helping services…. ;)
I grabbed every chance to look into her eyes ……..those intensified heart beats does feel good. I noticed a change in her stare…………. caught her twice looking at questionable places on my body, seriously guys…. I can understand how girls feel when guys do so. She would grab that bar exactly at the place where I did …… sort of hand touching game carried on as the train cruised through the rest of the distance to NDLS.
As the train stopped, … I ran out and waited on the bridge in front of the stairs……. I was confident that she would definitely look for a chance to talk to me…… after all her family members passed by my side……. She came on the bridge, stood there for a while…….. yeah she waited for me to come……. we saw each other, gave a relieved look,…..as I approached her that heavy voice followed her…
Bharti beta,…..what are you waiting for…….come on lets go..”
.tring tring!!...”hello?”
Sourabh, where are you……I am on platform no. 8….”
I’ll be there in a minute……….be near by the stairs….”
Hi buddy,….welcome to delhi……. ;) …how was your journey, where did you get that weird hairstyle from by the way?”….. I asked while lifting kartik’s baggage.
Ah, dun ask …bad hair days goin on…… journey was ok….. u tell……how was your journey?....”
“………it was awesome man……. I’ll tell you on the way back to home……there’s too much to tell….. ”, I said excitedly……..



\\ I never got a call from Bharti\\

Sunday, July 20, 2008

The one with dumb student

Its 9:45 in the morning and we are here in mechatronix lab...Operation Research's lecture.....poff P Bhardwaj enters after all eight of us have positioned ourselves in the chairs.

"He is a cool proff",I said, introducing him to Vijay who came back from training this weekend missing all the classes of last week.

"All right, but I m famished, man I wish I could miss this class", he replied as he chooses one notebook from his bag.

"lets continue the problem we did in last class, lets say there's 0.2 probability that there's is oil in the land...."proff Bhardwaj continues as he reached the board.

"Nikki, there's a girl...11th standard, what do you think", mom said as I came back after my studies.

...does she want me to meet her...i mean i m only 18,.....may be 18 is enough....."what do you mean?"..i replied in hesitation.

"wants to study physics and maths, you know daddy cant teach 11th standard maths."

"Oh cool,...ask her to come from tommorow, may be this would help me pass my time..specially if you are a dropper.

"Your new student is here son,...shall i send her to your room.."

"yeah its ok....."
and there she is...sitting in my room.......ummmm...very quite...... and beautiful....and she smells wierd not in a bad sense....but then too.

"so, where shall we start from...physics?.....newton's laws of motion?"

mass into acceleration equals force!!!!

"whats acceleration, sir?"

"rate of change of velocity...."

"whats velocity?"

..is she really this dumb,....or not interested in studies....?

"rate of change of distance.....sry displacement"

"Oh..thats all so confusing..thats why i hate physics...you have to mug up so many things"

" you dont have to....its all common sense"

"Alright, I 'll try......I've this doubt...my school teacher could not solve this problem"

i solved that question in 20 mins.....although it was a real pain in ass....i mean lengthy....i was proud of myslef!!!!

next half an hour i explained her the question........."i'll explain the answer next time...time's up".....dats what daddy told me...not to exceed time limit while taking tutions......being proffessional ;).


"so the final Expected Value of Experimentation coms out to be53!.......sourabh ....did you get this value?"

"ye..yes sir"..i nodded as i came out my lucid dream.